I did a thing today
Finally got a tattoo
After years of being chicken
I decided to be a big girl and follow through
I got them for me and no one else
I didn’t want anyone knowing
This was personal, part of my journey
I couldn’t risk someone preventing me from going
I am so glad I did it
And I don’t care what people think or their response
My body, my decision
After all, this is Sarah’s Renaissance
I’m officially divorced
A statement I can finally say with no remorse
It took me a while to get here
A rollercoaster of emotions – anger, sadness, denial, acceptance, and fear
And though not my choice when this all began
I decided to see this through and make a plan
After all the heartbreak, headaches and hell
I’m free, all of me, down to my last blood cell
I’m not dying so there is no need to pity or to call and inquire
This chapter is finished, I’m lighting that shit up and having a bonfire
I’m fine, in fact I’m better than okay
Today I got divorced, this is my liberation day
Last year I began my own renaissance. It was slow but steady and I accomplished some things. In 2018 I:
- logged 80+ workouts
- lost 35 pounds
- went to the gym by myself
- took my dogs to the beach for the first time
- faced some of my own demons and hard truths, acquired some new ones along the way
- cleaned out my Monica closet (props to those who know what this is)
- bought a home
- wrote more
- read but not nearly as much as I wanted to
- bought myself something expensive and got over the mom guilt
- survived another year of parenting a tween
I shared some of my progress along the way to celebrate the small wins. Because in life you have to call out the small shit, right? And I’m definitely not done. The year is well on it’s way and the renaissance must continue…
There is sooo trash in the world. So much darkness. I am cleansing all that crap out of me. Doing a little Marie Kondo on my mental, emotional, spiritual and physical baggage to make sure I am only carrying the essentials (and they are neatly folded). It won’t be easy but I’m here for it all. Then I’m hoping I can contribute to the positive. Live in the light and put some light out into the world. Because boy do we need more light in our lives. Am I right or am I right?
I don’t have particular goals or resolutions. But just as renaissance implies – I am continuing the rebirth of a better version of myself. I hope that when I take stock of the things I’ve done in 2019 that my list spreads the whole gamut of human health. Because above all things – I’m committed to myself. I need to be the best form of me to be the best mom, partner, daughter, sister, friend, co-worker, and or stranger on the goddamn street I can be.
So here’s to 2019 and all that it brings.
Raise your hand if you’ve been scrolling Facebook and stubble across a food video and start drooling? You think oh I could soooo make that. Naturally, you like/share it or even save it for later use. Well, my food obsessed husband tags me in these finds all of the time! So instead of asking what should I make for dinner I started picking from the list of videos and while there were some duds (there always are, aren’t there?) there were also some big successes!
We all kind of get into a food rut in the Fall/Winter. It’s sometimes hard to find things you really want to make when you can’t just throw things on the grill. That being said – I’m sharing with you a few of the most recent food videos (and recipes) that were a hit at our house.
- Creamy Lemon Parmesan Chicken Piccata
- Easy Beef Burrito Skillet
- Oven Baked Chicken Tacos
- Found on Facebook at The Cookie Rookie
- Full printable recipe found here
- NOTE: Used 1 packet Old El Paso Mild instead of Hot & Spicy Taco Seasoning to make more kid friendly.
- Flammin’ Hot Cheetos Pizza
- Cider Glazed Pork
- Found on Facebook at Delish
- Full printable recipe found here
Have any new recipes you want to share? Link in the comments!
Every year a set a reading goal because I love books and this is what we readers do. And reading for fun is just something I need to do for my mental health. Escaping reality into James Patterson’s mysteries and solving who done it or swooning over some hunk in one of Corinne Michaels’ latest or even laughing and crying my way through one of Jenny Lawson’s truthful stories on mental health is a must for me. I need it between all the bull shit at work, the chores at home that I’m casually neglecting and the overwhelming stress I feel 24/7/365. So books. I love them. They are my therapy. My escape.
This year I told myself 12 books was more than reasonable. I mean I’m friends with people who read 12 books a month so 12 in the course of a YEAR is more than feasible. Right? Well I did it. In fact – I’ve read 14 (that’s 117% for those keeping score at home!) and I’m in the middle of two more because the year isn’t over yet. Am I right or am I right?
SOOOO as the holidays approach and you find that you have some extra time on your hands – I encourage you to pick up a book. I thought I would share with you the books I’ve read this year so far to help if you need some suggestions. Of course you can keep up to date on what I’m reading, dying to read and have read on goodreads. I’m constantly adding books to my shelves.
Books I’ve read thus far in 2016:
Not on goodreads? YOU SHOULD BE! It’s a book lover’s dream!*
*Note: This is not an ad nor was I paid or compensated in any fashion for saying this. I just really like books.
Y’all! I’ve been in a committed employment relationship for 5 whole years. Monday was my official work anniversary. Second longest relationship other than my spouse (and BFF but duh!) and I’m not going to lie – I’m pretty goddamn impressed with myself. Work has been kicking my ASS but I did get a hot minute to reflect on the last 5 years:
- I’ve more than doubled my starting salary. WOOT! Though if my manager is reading this (GOD I HOPE NOT) I legit need a raise STAT.
- I’m currently on my 4th role in 5 years and they have all been promotions or growth opportunities.
- Currently serving on the board of our women’s organization but have been an active member since I began work. It’s allowed me to meet authors like local leaders and authors like Katrina Kittle – who legit knows me now (GEEK MODE).
- Agile- I know it, I’m in it, it’s my life.
- I’ve met some amazing people along the way and made some enemies… I’m sure of it.
- I’ve survived reorgs and still maintained a job! YAY!
- I feel like I’ve created a professional brand for myself that is positive and that people genuinely respect.
Everyday I learn new things. Work is a challenge but in a good way. While I have my days to bitch about it I do enjoy my work and I can’t wait to see what the next 5 years has in store for me.