I have depression (who doesn't, right?) and anxiety. Neither are anything I love to talk about but mental health is a real struggle that a lot of us face, often in silence. I'm medicated, so I function. Just like most, I have ups and downs, peaks and valleys of good mental health and bad. Currently… Continue reading Dark Valleys
I know it's been months since I last posted but I was in a dark place. I had to take a break from writing because my brain was being stupid and I was being self destructive. But I'm here. Hope you are too.
It's gray outside. Much like it is inside. Overcast, cold...the kind of day that you want to stay in bed forever and do nothing. Hide from the world, your responsibilities and problems. That's how I'm feeling today. Honestly, how I've been feeling. I'm up and trying to keep busy. Faking my way through the day.… Continue reading Gray
Two weeks ago I was casually browsing the inter webs and thought I would peak on some of my favorite people on the world. We all have those people we like to follow and see what they are doing. Yours are like Kim Kardashian or Kanye. Mine are a little different. Mine are Chrissy Teigen (because… Continue reading She saves me.
Stressed doesn't begin to explain what I am feeling but it's a start. And overwhelmed is a gross understatement. Burnt out, exhausted....just don't do it justice. I'm confident there is not a word for the magnitude of pressure that is building in my head, the migraine that I've had for what seems like forever, the… Continue reading s t r e s s e d
I feel broken. Mentally, emotionally, physically. It's exhausting keeping up with the day-to-day but I have to and so I do. But I want to curl up in the dark with my puppies and sleep. Everything seems off, nothing is right. I try, I fail. Every effort unnoticed or unappreciated. All I want to do… Continue reading Broken
I get it. I'm a bad mom. I work full time, I don't attend every gymnastics practice, I'm not on the PTO, I rarely if ever volunteer at school, I don't go to church often if ever, I cuss like a fucking sailor, I like my Lady and Diet, I'm not a super fit mom… Continue reading Don’t guilt me.