I’m sorry. For saying all the things. For oversharing my thoughts. For being in my feelings sometimes. For over communicating. For being too forward and too honest. For caring too much. For loving too hard. For wanting things that aren’t mine. For wishing things I’m unworthy of. For being stubborn. For being sassy. For giving my unsolicited opinion from time to time. For being indecisive. For being a total head case. For having anxiety and depression. For having this body and body image issues. For crying too easily. For playing with my hair too much. For having a foul mouth. For not being someone else. I’m sorry for just being me. I’m sorry.
I value what we have With everything I am Granted it’s only been a few months But all I can say is DAMN I need you in my life Something stable to lean on Things would be very shaky If you were ever gone You know more about me Than I would ever care to share With absolutely anyone else They don’t even begin to compare No doubt about it You are a phenomenal friend I plan on sticking through it all Until the very end No matter what we face I think we can handle it together You by me and me by you A strong team forever
Unusual to find a picture of just me Never confident enough to for people to see Filters used to make all the corrections Important to fix my many imperfections Longing to feel comfortable in my own skin To feel beautiful on the outside and deep within Everyday seeking some form of approval Realizing slowly that self love is more crucial Eventually I’ll show just me, bit by bit Determined to be a girl that owns her own shit
I’m growing Morphing and changing into a better version of me
Giving myself a chance knowing there is never a guarantee Ready, finally, for this new chapter of my life Over all the toxic people – cutting them out with a knife Willfully hoping for good things and ready for new memories I’m proud of how far I’ve come – made sure to sage away bad energies Nothing about this has been easy – anxious, emotions overflowing Going to just take it one day at a time and keep on glowing
Hi. Welcome to another edition of my confessions. It’s been a minute since I spilled my guts so this might be a longer list than usual.
If you’re new here – save yourself! I mean, welcome! I have a condition known as word vomit where I have a bad habit of speaking the truth. Too often. It’s side effects include bull shit intolerance and loss of friendships. Also, emotional eating and sudden death. But it’s fine. Anyway, every now and then I opt to just confess on Al Gore’s internet because why the hell not.
So I’m finding that a global pandemic is a solid excuse for canceling plans or having to reschedule appointments/meetings. They really cannot get mad at you.
I am an overthinking, over analyzing crazy bitch. Yes. I know this about myself and I do it anyway. Pretty sure it’s a form of self destruction.
Lyrics, like quotes, carry a lot of meaning for me.
I’m addicted to Trader Joe’s dark chocolate peanut butter cups and I hide them from my kid because while sharing is caring – that rule does not apply to mama’s chocolate. Haven’t had them? Go. Now. Go right now and get some. I can wait….
I’m low key jealous of those houses in the neighborhood that are perfectly gingerbreaded with Christmas lights. One day I’ll be independently wealthy and will just have extra money laying about to have this done for me. Until then, I will drive by in awe of other people’s perfectly lit homes. Nevermind. Who am I kidding? I will NEVER have hoards of money to spend on something like that. I guess I’ll just be forever butthurt.
Occasionally, it sounds like someone is walking on the second floor of the house when we are all downstairs. (I KNOW I KNOW – I SAGED AND EVERYTHING!!!!) It could be the wind since this house has drafty ass windows. But I have convinced myself that this is just my fairy godmother checking in. She’s a little thick, so she’s not as light in her feet.
I have over 150 items in my Amazon saved for later cart. It’s a problem.
For Thanksgiving this year – I found myself thankful for things like alone time, masks, my divorce, having particular people in my life this year….in addition to the usual stuff like family and good health.
There are at least three more tattoos in my future. And I’m super excited about it!
Holiday foods I cannot condone: whipped mashed potatoes (where the fuck are the lumps, yo?!), canned cranberry anything, stuffing or dressing (whatever you call it), eggnog (*gags*), and fruitcake (I would actually rather be put down).
I love the Amazon man. He’s essentially my boyfriend. He comes to see me regularly and he brings me things.
I am a sucker for a Buzzfeed list. “58 Fancy But Inexpensive Gifts For Everyone On Your List” or “3984 Things You Didn’t Know You Needed But Totally Do” or “38 Books to Read If You Loved Harry Potter” or “47 Things For the Geek In Your Life”…you get the idea. I’m the person who goes through them, the person who adds that shit to their wish list on Amazon, the person who is like,”shut the front door, I do need that.” This is like the virtual Target Dollar Bin for me.
Wrapping presents is a hobby of mine. You hate it? Totally fine. Bring me yours and I’ll wrap them for you. I LOVE TO WRAP!